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who the f*ck are we, even??: the brb crying origin story

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We've spent dozens of episodes crying about movies, books, songs, childhood memories, and existential crises—but somehow we've never properly answered the question: who the f*ck are we, even??

In this special bonus episode, we're ditching our usual essay format and sitting down for an unhinged little Q&A. We talk about how we became friends (spoiler: it involves Catholic school, Filipino family parties, and some devastating childhood fashion criticism), our dream podcast guests, what we love most about ourselves, and the stories we never quite turned into full episodes.

Along the way, we revisit some of our favorite brb crying moments, from About Time and The Hunger Games to Olivia Dean, Nancy Tillman, and the books and movies that continue to emotionally destroy us years later.

If you're new here, consider this your unofficial orientation packet. If you've been with us since the beginning, consider this proof that we still can't stfu.

In this episode:

  • How Nins & Arns became friends 25+ years ago
  • Growing up Filipino in a small Catholic school community
  • Our dream podcast guests
  • The qualities we admire most in ourselves (and each other)
  • Stories we almost covered on the podcast
  • The brb crying episodes that still haunt us

0:00 - Intro
0:50 - Something *different* for today's ep
5:18 - Collabs
7:26 - 1. From your memory, how did we meet?
12:03 - 2. Who is your dream podcast guest?
18:49 - 3. What do you love most about yourself (and me)?
27:12 - 4. What's a story for the pod you started writing but never aired?
30:29 - 5. What's something I've shared on the pod that stuck with you?
35:32 - Outro

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brb crying—hosted by longtime best friends Nins & Arns—is a podcast where we explore the songs, books, TV shows, films, pop culture moments, and personal stories that help us laugh, cry, heal, and feel a little less alone. Crying is our superpower, and by sharing what makes us cry in a way that makes us laugh, we show how crying helps us connect with ourselves and each other.

Intro

SPEAKER_00

Hi, I'm Angela Nan.

SPEAKER_01

I'm Ariana Kempis.

SPEAKER_00

And this is BRB Crying.

SPEAKER_01

Hello everyone. Welcome back to BRB Crying. I'm Ariana, also known as Arnt. And I'm Angela, also known as Ninz.

SPEAKER_00

And welcome to our special little episode today. We got a little bonus one for you. Typically, this is a podcast where we value the vulnerability. We talk about things that make us cry and we pick cute little story for you to share. But today

Something *different* for today's ep

SPEAKER_00

we're changing things up. In full vulnerability, we've had a fucking crazy ass month. Have not had time to put together a fucking essay and then read it to you. So instead, we're gonna just kind of wing this episode.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah. We're gonna ask each other a couple of questions. I have no idea what she has written down. She has no idea what I've written down. But we've been doing a lot of different collabs lately. And we've been getting a lot of questions around our origin story. Right. And who the fuck are you guys? Who the fuck are you? Um basically. So we thought it would be kind of fun, especially for some newer listeners, if you could get to know us a little bit in a unique way.

SPEAKER_00

I know that we bear our souls story after story, but today we're just gonna ask the unhinged questions.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

Share that side of us to you.

SPEAKER_01

I yeah, I really have no idea the nature of your questions, which is why I have 10 written down. Oh. Spanning.

SPEAKER_00

Ah, I shouldn't I shouldn't hype them though. They're not like super unhinged. Okay, okay.

SPEAKER_01

I don't know.

SPEAKER_00

I could. You could. But yeah, we'll see. We'll see how this goes. Appreciate everyone uh exploring this new side with us. I'm excited.

SPEAKER_01

Hope you find it interesting. This will be, I think, more of a glimpse of what our actual conversations are like. Yeah, yeah, yeah. When it's just us two. Uh we've been on lots of planes together recently. When it's us two, and it's uh there's a bunch of random people around us. Yeah. And we are just getting into it. We were recently. Yeah, I was just gonna say, should we tell them? Yeah, well, just well, high level. We were on multiple flights together recently. We had a stopover, and it was just us two. And I totally thought I was gonna I thought I was gonna read.

SPEAKER_00

No, it okay. Well, the total travel day was like six hours from airport one to layover to landing at airport two. I brought my laptop. Thought we would do some work on the pod. Downloaded a few episodes on the iPad. You guys, we did not stop talking for a single second.

SPEAKER_01

No, it was it was kind of crazy, but it was it was honestly a really nice six hours. It was a nice reminder to be like, oh, well, this we kept saying, well, this is why we have a podcast because we can't shut the fuck up.

SPEAKER_00

So should I whip out some microphones on this Southwest flight right now? Because I could. Yeah, I could.

SPEAKER_01

I really do think we need to invest in more mobile recording devices because maybe you never know with us. Yeah. Before we get into all of that, though, I want to really briefly remind our listeners that you know we'd like a little review. If you can give it to us if you haven't yet, five stars. Help us invest in the mobile equipment.

SPEAKER_00

Help us by spreading awareness of your favorite podcast.

SPEAKER_01

If you give us five stars on Apple, we'll be able to afford mobile recording devices. But for real, like Apple, Spotify, tell your friends about us. That is honestly like one of the hugest ways we can grow just organically. Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

And obviously, we have so much love for our longtime listeners, and we just want to spread that love by bringing in new people to the community, converting new crybabies. And and the only way we can do that is by having you spread the word. Yeah. Spread the tea.

SPEAKER_01

Spread the cry gospel. I think I said that uh on on one of our lives recently. Okay. Maybe the Panai Fresh Live. I feel like it came out, and I was like, I think there's a little bit of a religious undertone there. That's what happens when you got the Catholic trauma, Catholic school trauma. It's in our bones, guys. So cry gospel, spread the good word. The good news. Spread the good news. And also follow us on all socials Instagram, YouTube, TikTok at BeerB Crying Talk Podcast. If you want to send us your sob stories, we love a sob story, we love a cry recommendation. Hello at BeerB CryingPodcast.com or submit a form on our website, beerbycryingpodcast.com. And if you follow us on Instagram, that is where we keep you up to date on all of the current events. And speaking of our Instagram.

SPEAKER_00

Sorry, current events happening with us. Sorry. My bad. And

Collabs

SPEAKER_00

speaking of our Instagram, we've had some really cool collabs lately. You just mentioned Pin Eye Fresh. Check out our live with Gigi. Gigi. Love you, girl. Love you, girl. We had such a great conversation with her. Check out her socials. And there's another event that Arns and I had just come back from, which is the Novel Affair bookstore located in Los Alt, California. If anyone's in from the Bay, there is a new romance bookshop in town. And can I just say I'm so fucking excited? I love a romance novel. Love a romance novel. Romanticy, fuck me up. Yes, yes. So we are so excited to partner with them and collaborate with them in the future because can I just say, books and feeling your feelings, it's all intersected. It's all the same shit. All the same shit.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah, so we're really excited to see what comes of that, and we'll keep you all updated. Last announcement. I guess we do have quite a few things to say. Check out our merch. It's on our website, beerbeecryingpodcast.com. There's also a link in our bio on Instagram. Or you could shop directly on curatedcultura.com. Okie dokie.

SPEAKER_00

New territory. Okay. So switching over to our QA portion. Yes. Now QA. Um, thank you so much for sitting down with me for this interview. I know you're super busy. I am. Should I start off with the question?

SPEAKER_01

Okay. I I will say I have a bunch of shit written down. Not sure which one I'm gonna ask. I also have not, in turn, prepared my own answer to these questions. Cool.

SPEAKER_00

Cool. Going blind here. Please. Amazing. Great. I'm glad. I haven't had time to think about anything. No. So it's been a little busy. Well, okay,

1. From your memory, how did we meet?

SPEAKER_00

I guess since this is our first question, it needs to be like an intro question. From your memory, how did you and I meet? Oh no. I don't know. How did we meet? Yeah.

SPEAKER_01

No, I don't. I can't answer this. Really? You don't remember like the first? No, I remember our first I I have a memory with you. Okay. We were we were f way past. Oh, really? Yeah, because you were so mean. You told me my colors didn't match.

SPEAKER_00

That's my first memory of you. You told the story at my wedding.

SPEAKER_01

I did? Yeah, you did. I don't remember. Yeah. Okay. Well, let me tell everyone here. Okay, but this is not how we met. This is not how we met. But I'm saying this in lieu of that answer because I can't tell you how we met. I recall us, we're at a family party. I'm probably eight. You're probably seven. I don't know. I was wearing my favorite baby blue tank top with flowers and khaki shorts, maybe. And we were looking in the mirror. Of course, you're a head taller than me for some weird reason. And you were like, ha ha, your clothes don't match. And I was like, uh, okay. I mean, I really like this outfit, but cool. That is my first memory of you. Yeah. I don't remember meeting.

SPEAKER_00

You chose to be my friend after. You know, I I gave you the benefit of the doubt. Yeah. Yeah. Well, probably because the first time we did actually meet. You remember? Yeah. Oh. Well, okay. Also, just for some context, me and Arns went to the same small Catholic school from like pre-K through eighth grade, but we were one grade apart. Arns was a year in the grade above me. So we weren't like spending every single day together, but we would just go to the same place every day for 10 years. Yes. And this was like a very like small, tight-knit church/slash school filled with like a bunch of Filipinos in the South Bay. And because you're there so much, the families of these kids kind of started to become friends with each other, too. And so we had kind of formed this random group of Filipino families, call them barangay. And we would just shout out Shout the fuck out some of the best memories of my childhood. Reason why we're friends. They would just like randomly host parties like every month. Yeah. And all of these kids across all these different grades would just hang out. And that's kind of how we became friends. But the day that you and I actually had our first conversation was at church. Oh my God. What? So like Catholic trauma. Um we were at I have no recollection. Really? I don't even remember. We must have been in second and third grade. Okay. But we were at like a 5 p.m. Saturday Mass or something like that. And like Love a 5 p.m. mass on a Saturday Mass. Then on Sunday, you don't have to go to church. You know what I mean? Yeah, just give up your Saturday. Um but we all the parents were like trying to get the kids to sing in the choir. And so you were already sitting there. Okay. You know, and I sat down next to you. Oh. And I remember I was so funny that day. As you always were. I remember I was like really, really funny. And I was like, this girl is laughing at every one of my jokes. That is why okay.

SPEAKER_01

We you say we're friends because of the parties. I say we're friends because you were funny. Oh I thought you were so funny. I still think you're funny. You're cute. Thank you. You know what I mean?

SPEAKER_00

Yeah. So that was the first time that we like sat together and talked. And then I was like, she laughs at a lot of my jokes. I like her. Yeah, but then I cry when you tell me like my clothes don't match. Did you? Okay. I was hurt though. Tell me that. Yeah. Yeah. But anyway, yeah. Here we are. Wow. 25 years later. Isn't it really only 20? Yeah, that's about right. 25 years later. God, that's a long time. Yeah, long time. Too long? So no, not long enough.

SPEAKER_01

Not long enough.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01

So yeah, that's our origin story. I love it. Yeah. Do I even want to ask these questions? I like that one. That one was so well, just you know. Had to give them the very, very beginning. I like that though, because this was more of a get to know us from the beginning. My questions are not that. That's fine. We can take this forever. Um, but I kind of want to keep going down this. This is fun. Okay. Well, here's me throwing away all those questions. Okay. And coming up with one on the fly. Okay.

2. Who is your dream podcast guest?

SPEAKER_01

Who's your dream podcast guest?

unknown

Oh.

SPEAKER_00

Let's do this instead. Ooh, I have so many.

unknown

Um.

SPEAKER_01

I know you I know you have a lot. I know I have a lot too. Oh. What's uh what's I mean, very, very obviously. Can I guess?

SPEAKER_00

Yeah. Ariana Grande. Of course. What the fuck? I don't know. No, but I I have this fear that, like, if I'm in the same room with her, I'm just gonna go like this. And like not know what to do with my body. No, that's not gonna happen. Have to manually tell myself inhale, exhale. No, no, no. You're gonna be so funny when we finally interview her. It'll be amazing. Yeah, that's gonna, that's gonna rock my fucking world.

SPEAKER_01

Is there a-ny person?

SPEAKER_00

So much.

SPEAKER_01

Is there anything that specifically you'd want to ask her about? Or is it just kind of a let me get to know who you are on a soul level?

SPEAKER_00

It's not that I want to ask her. Like, I would just love the opportunity to tell her that the way that she has navigated through the world and worn her heart on her sleeve and allowed people to see such softness to her. Like, I just I admire that so much. Like, she just fucking like lets it all out. And I just I want to emulate that.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

You know? I feel that. Beautiful, talented, cool, you know, just I will cry.

SPEAKER_01

I did re-watch, I rewatched part one of Wicked in anticipation of eventually watching part two. I know you just watched part two. Yeah. Uh got a little fucked up over it. Uh yeah. Okay.

SPEAKER_00

A little. Do you wanna do you wanna do a little recap? Um I will say that Wicked Part Two highlights the complexity of Glinda in the way that the musical doesn't necessarily have the bandwidth to. Oh. I like that. So there's a lot more nuance to her decisions, her mindset. Okay. Hurts.

SPEAKER_01

Okay.

SPEAKER_00

It hurts.

SPEAKER_01

I love that. Yeah. I was gonna say, re-watching part one, Ariana Garde is so funny, and there are moments where I'm like, is this written in or is this her? Because she's so she's so she's so funny. She's so funny. She's so funny.

SPEAKER_00

I can see the ways she made Glinda hers. Yeah, yeah, yeah. No, she is my dream podcast guest. I love it. Um, I do have to mention a few others though.

SPEAKER_01

Yes.

SPEAKER_00

There is a TikToker named Lydia. I think her username is Psychic-Ish Podcast. And she is a psychic, and she tunes into a bunch of photos or like Zillow listings of like haunted houses. I think she's so fascinating. She just has like such incredible energy, and she talks about spirituality and ghosts and past lives and connecting with your third eye with such grace and sensitivity and respect. And she is the TikToker that I will pull up whenever I'm eating my work lunch. Like, you know, you're just you just want to like she's your work buddy. She's my work buddy. Yeah. I would love to have a conversation with her and just dabble into the unknown.

SPEAKER_01

When we have her on the pod, I will have to bring up that video where she has the dream about being pregnant. I will find this and link this. Nin sent me this video that Lydia posted where Lydia's talking about being pregnant in her dream. She's like a kid in uni, and you know, she's in school. She, but in her dream, she's pregnant, and usually the dreams end there. But this one went all the way through to having the child, raising the child, and it went on until his 40th birthday. That that one fucked me up. And she talks about how she woke up from that and was just completely shattered. Yeah. Because she had lived an entire life. In one night. In one night. It's crazy. Oh my god, that one is so good. I I can't wait to ask her about that. Yeah, no, I love her. Yeah. She's the best. Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

All right.

SPEAKER_01

Okay. You. Ooh, Brettman Rock. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. I've been saying this for a long time. Even before he started his own podcast, I was like, I can't wait to sit down with him. Can't wait to be on his podcast. I know he usually just keeps it with his tight circle. Yeah. Can't wait to become part of that tight circle. Fly to Hawaii, be in his podcast, hang out with Prince. Yeah. And his little chicken. Yeah, yeah. His little. Yeah, yeah. Maybe even like sit down with his niece, Cleo. I don't know. But I mean, I've always loved Bretman. I followed him. I think he still had only a few hundred thousand. Only a few hundred thousand followers. Yeah. But he did that one, the one that went viral when him and Princess, like she's walking by him in the background and he fucking hits her over the head. Yeah. So like crazy. No, literally, we were following him when he was still in high school. No, yeah, we were in college, I think. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Either in college or at the end of college. It's so weird. I feel like I know him. I know, exactly. And I and that's exactly the what I hope we emulate to like that familiarity. But I was gonna say that I've always loved him, but then he came out with that reality series. And I remember there was a scene where he, you know, he has his mom there and his cousins and his sister, and they're speaking Ilocano, and I was like, oh my god, I never thought I would hear, you know, a language from the Philippines on air. It was on, I think, at MTV, right? I was like, this is so cool. The amount the visibility that he is bringing to the Philippines and the way he bridges that gap between being a Filipino from the Philippines, also being Phil Am. It's so beautifully done, and it's not even like he's trying. It's just so effortlessly like him being himself and him being so authentic through all of it.

SPEAKER_00

Exactly. I was just gonna say, as a follow-up to what I just said of I feel like I know him. Of course I do, because he's so himself. There's no mask, there's just this authenticity, you know? Yeah.

SPEAKER_01

I can't wait. Uh that's I think he's my number one, but yeah. I've obviously the list is long. Yeah. The list is long. Yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_00

Okay. Oh, it's my turn. And it's your turn. Okay. All right.

3. What do you love most about yourself (and me)?

SPEAKER_00

What do you love most about yourself? Oh, I thought you were gonna say about me. You can answer that one too.

SPEAKER_01

That's a follow-up. What okay, this just took a turn. What do I love most about myself? I love that I phrase this. I love that I have always tried to see the best in people. And I always try to see the best. I couldn't cry. Uh I always try to show people grace, give them the benefit of the doubt, believe that there's even an ounce of good in everyone. I think that it could be seen as being naive, but I know we've talked about this on the pod before, but I think it's actually kind of a hard thing to do. I know it can seem like I'm overlooking people's faults, or like if someone has wronged me, I'm just choosing not to like be angry about it. Or like I'm I don't know. I don't know how to articulate that, but I love that I I try really hard. I try really hard, and even though people have like called me out on that, like, why are you, you know, why are you why are you showing grace to this person who doesn't deserve your grace? And I think that those are the moments that I'm proud of where I can like hold on to that, and it still feels like ultimately that's what feels true to me. That is something that has always throughout my whole life consistently felt like me being me. Like me searching for the good in people.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01

I don't think that's something to get mad at you about. I mean, I can see that people who love me have gotten really frustrated with me in the past for letting other people seemingly wrong me.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01

And not getting angry about it when I could be a lot more angry.

SPEAKER_00

I see. Yeah, I I can see that from a protective right. You don't want to watch someone you love get hurt. Exactly. Over and over again. No, that's that is a beautiful thing. Because I also think that at least where we are in life now, we have the understanding of how to protect ourselves too. You know? It's like we can kind of separate giving someone another chance while also like not allowing them necessarily to penetrate the most vulnerable parts of us.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah. Yeah. And that is something that I didn't always have. So even more so now I feel like I can extend that grace while still first and foremost showing myself that grace. I see.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah. What about you? No, you have to answer what do you love most about me?

SPEAKER_01

Oh, what do I love most about you? You're funny. The theme of today's episode. You've always been so funny. Well, that's not the thing I love most about you, though. That's like I mean, that's like a bonus, much like this episode. Um What do I love most about you? Um, I love that you well, this is more of a the way I've seen you grow. Pat I feel like you, for a long time, very much like that Capricorn side of you, like more of a harder exterior shell. And, you know, people would come across you and they'd be like, oh like I Oh, she's so intimidating. She's so intimidating and like, you know. But you were a bitch when I first met you. Okay, are we digging into trauma here? Um but but I mean, now you're doing a fucking podcast about your feelings. Like that's so cool. Like you have just, I think you still give that air of like, oh, she's so cool. Like, you know, how do I, you know, approach her kind of feel? But it's it feels less of a defense mechanism now. If that's what I don't know, maybe that maybe part of it was like that when you were a lot younger. But yeah, now it's like when the person can get into your your little force field, it's like I don't want to be anywhere else.

SPEAKER_00

You know? Like I think it was like insecurity before. Like uh I'm too cool, you know. Okay. But like as I've gotten older, I just like love connecting with people. Yeah. I do see that though. Like if if you're allowed in, yeah, yeah. What an honor. You know? You will never be out of my grasp. No, you know, no. I'll love you for life.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah. The loyalty, the loyalty. Yeah.

unknown

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

Okay, swinging it back to me. What do you love most about yourself? I would say the loyalty. Like I feel like the people that I love know so strongly that I love them. And like the way that I show that love is really wanting to understand them, like allowing them to just drop whatever emotional burden they want. And I will be here to listen to them and hold their hand and and talk them through it. I I think I remember you saying once that, like, whenever you have a story, I'll sit here and I'll listen to it, and then I'll spit out exactly what you couldn't necessarily put into words.

SPEAKER_01

And a lot of people who have listened to our podcasts have said that about you too, where it's like you've been able to put into words what they were also feeling that they couldn't articulate themselves.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah. Yeah. I feel like my purpose here, you know. Um I also really love the softness that I've really learned to lean into over the years, and like I love the importance I place on like understanding myself. Like really just sitting in silence for long periods of time and allowing my mind to wander. Like I really value that time with myself and that I make time for me. Yeah. But I think I'm also just really proud of the relationships I've cultivated, like with my friendships, with my husband. Like I love that I've found that. I love that for me. Yeah. You know? Yes. Yeah. Same. Yeah. Yeah. And what I love about you the most is that I think of all of the conversations that we've had for 25 plus years, every hour of it, it could be funny or serious or gossip or whatever. Like I just feel so safe. Like I just feel like when I say something like I'm the only person in the room. Like I feel like you give that level of attention to all of the people in your life where you just like really see them and then you bring them into your world too. You love sharing that with them. Like, here's this thing that I love. Please have some. You know? I think there's such a generosity to your spirit. Yeah, I just think you're very interesting. I don't know.

SPEAKER_01

You always come up with something really interesting to say. I mean, same. I feel the same way.

SPEAKER_00

That might be why we have a podcast together. Um, yeah. It is hard to like just come up with like two minutes of hey, this person that I've known for a lifetime, what do I love most?

SPEAKER_01

Yeah, here's our top five qualities. Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

Cool. Yeah. Thanks. I love that. Yeah. Love you. Love you. Okay. All right.

SPEAKER_01

I think we do one more question. Okay. Ooh, one more question. Okay.

4. What's a story for the pod you started writing but never aired?

SPEAKER_01

What is something that has happened to you this past year that you would have loved to talk about, but you felt like it was either like too short to be a whole podcast episode or you didn't really like want to get into it. And it doesn't have to be like a heavy thing, but like, is there anything that you or maybe it's like a, is there a story that you started writing and then like you just felt called to talk about something else? So you just kind of like ditched it.

SPEAKER_00

But yeah, you know. I have been putting together a bunch of notes. Okay. For a Hunger Games.

SPEAKER_01

Oh my God.

SPEAKER_00

Story. You were rereading. I was rereading, re-listening, and watching the movies. Okay. And then we got Josh Hutcherson back up on my screen. He's doing a lot of promo for some random stuff. He's just in the air, you know. Um, so yeah, I've really been wanting to put together a Hunger Games story. Okay. It is in the works 2026. 2027? I don't know. I don't know. But yeah. Um I definitely want to cover Hunger Games at some point. Oh, that's on the horizon. Okay.

SPEAKER_01

Okay. I have like a more serious one, but I'll opt for a less serious one. Um I'm just gonna keep the vibes going. So there's a children's book author named Nancy Tillman. And the first time I picked up one of her books, I was at the library. You know, I was just picking up cute ones for sauna, brought it home. Uh I mean, like, I cried and okay, so I cried really hard, obviously. I straight up had a whole story. I think I have it in my phone still. I had an entire story written. I wrote the whole thing. I had the sources listed. Yeah. I talked about multiple books. I bought three more of her books. I have them in my collection. I was gonna like talk about them. Um and I it just I didn't feel like it was the right time for some reason. And I'm sure I think it was one of those things where toss that out the window, talked about something, we end up having the same fucking thesis. So one of my favorite books from her is Wherever You Are, My Love Will Find You. It's like talking about how, like, you know, like in the breeze or like when you hear, like, yeah, it's fucking crazy, dude. It's crazy, Nancy. You're a you're a wild one for that one. Yeah. But I mean, maybe I'll do it one day because I haven't written yet. It's ready to go. It's ready to go. You know, I just have to pack it up and you know, ship it. But yeah, sometimes you just feel like there's something else that is moving you. I can't explain it. I know you feel it too. Yeah, yeah. You just get guided to go in a different direction.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah, because otherwise our stories won't match. Yeah. Because they have to match. They always match. They have to be exactly the same.

unknown

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01

Or we won't publish the episode. We'll sit here record for two hours, won't publish it.

unknown

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

I think we have time for what because I have a question ready. And I feel I have a question ready and I know what you're gonna say. Okay, so why ask it? Because I want to talk about it.

5. What's something I've shared on the pod that stuck with you?

SPEAKER_00

My question was what is one thing that I've shared on the podcast that like you really took to heart or like you like didn't know about, and then you like- You know what I'm gonna say, really? Yeah. Are you sure? Oh, okay. Well, I can give you what I think you're gonna say. What do you think I'm gonna know? Shark Heart.

SPEAKER_01

No, that's not what I was gonna say. But yes, I didn't finish. I did finish Shark Heart, fucked me up, fucked me up. We can talk about it, maybe we can do a part two where we just talked about Shark Heart parts two and three. I did not know that that's what the fuck that book was gonna do to me.

SPEAKER_00

That's what I'm saying, right?

SPEAKER_01

No, it was too much.

SPEAKER_00

Like part one, you're already fucked up.

SPEAKER_01

Crazy, crazy. Yeah, yeah. Uh that's not what I was gonna say. I was gonna say most recently, because there are a lot of things you you've talked about that have stuck with me. Okay. But one that I keep coming back to is when you talk about uh about time and that the way you rolled your eyes at yourself. That fucking movie. The scene where they go back one final time with the dad and they go back to the beach, defying all laws that they should be adhering, all the rules they should be adhering to about time travel. Yeah. Throw it out the window, go back to this one simple day. That fucked me up, and I still come back to it a lot because that is for me the per. That is for me the perfect summation of what I feel like this entire life is. I just, I know that my future self, when I have all the things, all the awards, all the accolades, all the wealth, whatever it is, I know that I will just want to come back to the most simple times.

SPEAKER_00

So yeah, that fucked me up a little bit. I thought you were gonna say, like, whenever you have those simple moments with sauna, you bookmark that as like, this is the memory that I'm gonna come back to over and over.

SPEAKER_01

No, no, no, no, then with that too.

SPEAKER_00

Obviously. Yeah. Okay. Um mine is well, again, there's been several, but I think as of late, I keep remembering your story of Olivia Dean. Episode three, which was like almost a year and a half ago now. Yeah. Where you covered Olivia Dean and and your love for that song Carmen. And like she's fucking popping off as you said she would in that episode. You literally called it. This was two years before today, where she's all over the place. Yeah. Um, so in your coverage of Carmen, which is about her grandmother, you talked a lot about the celebration of what immigrants were able to make of their life when they moved countries and built this new generation for themselves. I feel like that was still in the early days of our podcast where I was still like developing my listening skills and like being able to sit in silence and just allow your words to move me. And then, you know, obviously I had to sit there and edit it and like listen to it over and over again. And I and it finally clicked what you were trying to say. Yeah, after the tenth time, because again, really dumb. Um but yeah, like I just I appreciate like, and every time I hear that song, I think about that message and how you're so right. How you know, when we think about the immigrant life, it's so riddled with struggle, but there's so little room for celebration when that's really what we should be doing. And I thought that was a really poignant message that you had. Episode three of our podcasts. Episode three. You know? Yeah. So I know.

SPEAKER_01

I re-listened to that song again, like maybe last week, and I was like, it's so good. It's so good. I mean, like who the fuck can write a song about their immigrant grandmother and make it be a fucking bop like that, you know? Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

SPEAKER_00

Crybabies, if you're curious, you haven't listened to those episodes, plugging ourselves. So yeah, Olivia Dean was episode three. About time, I think, was episode 31. About time, yes, episode 31.

SPEAKER_01

And then Sharkheart was sure. 26. 18. Oh, six was uh Ariana Grande. Oh yeah. We got some good ones. We have a lot of good ones. Honestly, I was telling Nins this and heads up, well, we might just recycle a couple of those golden older episodes, just because I know newer listeners might not necessarily have started from the beginning, but there's some old, some of our older, older ones where I'm like, that shit's still a fucking banger, you know what I mean? Dog.

SPEAKER_00

They're so funny, they're so insightful. My God. Yeah.

Outro

SPEAKER_00

Okay. That was fun. That was really fun. Let's do that again. I liked that. I think you said it well. I mean, it's like it's a more true glimpse into what our typical conversations are like. A little funny. A little funny. A little heartfelt, a little bit, you know. Some tears.

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Yeah.

SPEAKER_01

All right. So that's it. That's it for now. Catch us again in two. You know what? We're flexible here. I don't know yet what we're gonna come out with in two weeks. Maybe it's a full-on Christmas episode where we talk about Christmas things. Maybe we recycle an old episode because we don't have the bandwidth to record. Maybe we do another QA. I really can't tell you. But I hope that whatever it is, you still enjoy it. And, you know, we're so grateful for all of you for listening and sticking around, no matter what bullshit is spewed from our mouths.

SPEAKER_00

Enjoy. But yeah. Thanks everyone for tuning in. We hope that you have a really restful holiday season. And that's all we got. And that's all we got.

SPEAKER_01

I guess I could do one more plug. Follow us on Instagram. If you uh didn't hear me at the beginning harping on this, follow us. Rate us five stars at BeerB Crying Tot Podcast. Send us your sob stories. We love the sob stories. I've been getting a lot more people, especially during the holidays, giving me in-person recommendations. Like, oh, you should watch this. Oh, okay. Of course, I didn't write it down. Oh, okay. But I appreciate it. If you email it to me, I will have it in writing. I will not forget about it. Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

All right, that's it for now. We are gonna head out. We are going to live our lives. Yes. And we'll come back. Sit on this couch. Shell out some words. Yeah. Hopefully they're coherent. Hopefully they make sense. Yeah. But until then, beer bee.